5 février 2008 2 05 /02 /février /2008 23:34
Definitions of bohemian on the Web:
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- of or relating to Bohemia or its language or people
- a native or inhabitant of Bohemia in the Czech Republic
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I've fancied myself as a type of bohemian - a gypsy, immigrant child of immigrants, roaming - driven by circumstance rather than choice. Something like the song sung by Helen Segara in the Notre Dame de Paris French musical - Bohemienne
But what about Li Po's /Li Bai's famous poem, Thoughts on a Still night
Before my bed, the moon is shining bright,
I think that it is frost upon the ground.
I raise my head and look at the bright moon,
I lower my head and think of home.
(Source - http://www.chinese-poems.com/lb4t.html)
There is no moon tonight but it is cold. Chinese new year is approaching but my thoughts of home are not of China but of Malaysia - where it is equatorial steamy heat. Its my parents who are from China and I am in UK which is even colder than my ancestral village in Quangzhou.
What does it all mean? Does it have to mean anything? I find myself wishing i have someone to get excited about that it is the new year coming. While I am at it does it mean I have the advantage of calling myself a global citizen or a rootless immigrant? I am in West Midlands, home to Shakespeare - did he create any characters who feel as rootless as I do? Why do I think of Caliban?
My kids are bored of my questions of where I want my ashes to go - they think it is morbid. I think it is too. I shall return to this question of rootlessness later right now it seems like self indulgence.